Irresponsiblity/Disgustingly Wrong

THIS WOMAN infuriates me. And honestly, not that many things make me really mad.

As someone who know many people who "needed" or "need" IVF and would give their left arm to be able to afford it, this is grossly wrong on so many levels.

Many will say that it's her "right" to have as many babies as she wants. Really? It's her right until it's my or your tax dollars that have to pay for said babies. And more so than that, poor babies!!!?!?! They will probably not grow up having they type of life that all kids deserve.

My husband and I would like to add a 3rd child to our family, but the fact remains that we feel we cannot afford to right now. We wouldn't be able to provide for the new child and our other 2 children we already have.

This woman is an outrage. No wonder she refuses to talk to the press.

Pants on Fire!

I've talked before about my brother who lies alot. Lately it's getting worse. He lies about stupid trivial things though. Things that are silly, but things that make him feel important and powerful. For example he claims to "run" a local radio station. However in reality, he only makes sure that no is dead air during a pre-recorded broadcast. He claims that he heads a bible study group of "several people" when I know from bible study advisor that his group that has been shut down for a while now. He claims that my folks gave him the third degree about a girl that he used to "date", even going as far as saying that they were pestering him to get back together with her. When I mentioned this to my dad (who honestly never lies) he had no idea what I was talking about because obviously, that convo had never happened. He lies about doing things like eating at certain resturants that have been closed for year and about things like swearing that the way I pronouce procuttio is wrong. "My roommate is Italian, I swear to god you are saying it wrong." BTW: he has no Italian roommate.

I just hate lying. I hate lying on all levels, but lying about such trivial things is so annoying and stupid to me. I mean, I just hate it. It's like insulting to have someone lie to you about things that you know aren't true, yet they still try to force you to believe them. I am not stupid enough to believe that after just being hired, he's responsiuble for the entire production of a nationally broadcasted radio program. I am not stupid enought to believe that he's seen a live birth as he once stated "Of couse I've seen a live birth, duh I work in a hospital." YEAH, IN THE CAFETERIA, YA IDIOT! Let me tell you if the cafeteria boy showed up in the delivery room when I was in labor I would be pissed! I just want to tell him that EVERYONE knows he a liar and that he should shut up before it damages more realtionships. I just don't understand why someone would intentially make themselves look so stupid!??!

It's been a while

Hi! I've been so busy that I have been a major blogging slacker. There's been a lot going on!

• I started a new business venture that concentrates on something that I LOVE to do. It's working out well, I am making a little money. But I feel a sense of accomplishment that I haven't really felt since becoming a mom. Weird, but true, I can't really explain. So if you need some gourmet food product in your life, send me an email or comment and I will link you privately.
• We decided to take our oldest to Disneyland when she turns 3 in January. I am more excited than she is. As a kid I went there like 2 times a year because we lived close and my dad worked there in college and got some discount. I can't wait. She's tells everyone, even strangers that she' going. It's awesome.
• 1 year old is still teething and being good about it, but I can tell she's hurting, poor babes. I hate seeing her sad. In other news, she is happy as can be most of the time and even sleeps likes an angel. We are totally blessed when it comes to good sleepers. Little one sure is tolerant and accepting of having a bossy bigger sister. THANK GOODNESS!
• I am feeling fatter than ever even though I am down almost 15 lbs. The husband has been working out and weight lifting 5 days a week now and is trying to show me up, so now I have to try and 30 day shred 4 times a week or more. boo. i hate Jillian Michael.
• My almost 3 year old keeps asking me if I have a coconut on my head. oh and BTW she is potty trained and sleeps in a big girl bed since the last time I blogged. Sweet relief!! 1 down, one to go!
• Oh and am I the only one who thinks that Ross and Target could turn the Christmas Muzak down just a bit? I couldn't even hear myself think!

so what's up with you???

Blabbermouth

My oldest daughter loves to talk. She's been speaking in sentences since she was 2--she's almost 3. I love it most days. But what the heck am I supposed to do when she starts divulging things to people that I don't really want her to. For example she tells everyone, including strangers and my family a version of:

"I broke the curtains in sister's room and mommy told me, tell me the truth! and then I got a time out. And then mommy told me, NO! And i broke the curtain. and annd and then I am not allowed to throw water out the bathtub. And mommy spanked me, and took my paci and I had to go night night."

OR

"i can't tie my sissy up with a jump rope my daddy says no. and i can't hit her. my daddy yelled at me. i'm not allowed to have my pink princess jumprope. I have to be nice to my sister girl or daddy yell at me."

it's true, she did break the curtains over a month ago, and she did get a time out. she did dump about a gallon of water out of the tub for the zillionth time, and i did smack her butt one time and put her directly to bed. it's also true that my very kind and gentle hubs yelled at her not to tie up her sister. it's all true. but how do we get her to keep it to herself?????

Loooook Mommy!

I am really over the commercials that are making my 2 year olds' head almost explode with shear joy!

"Look mommy, a princess KITCHEN! A princess kitchen! I looooove that princess kitchen!"

and

"Look mommy, those baby dolls are swimming!"

and

"Look mommy, it's WUBZY!!!"

She isn't asking me to buy those things, she's just excited to see them I guess. Her favorite reading material these days is the Lillian Vernon, Pottery Barn and ABC catalogs. Like mother like daughter?

Noooooooo!

My youngest daughter makes this face that looks just like a scathing look that MIL gives!!!!

Ahhhhhhh! It's so scary.

I hope she grows out of it!

That's all, thanks.

Stealing from Constance (6 things)

I stole this six things meme from the OG Constance

1. I get really frustrated when people miss spell or confuse the words two, too and to.
2. I love the 99 cent store. I never need anything from there, but I love it.
3. I recently read Twilight, and and not at all ashamed to admit that I might be partially in love with a vampire named Edward. It's cool, the hubs already knows.
4. I found myself vetoing things that my mom wanted to do with kid just beause I felt like being a jerk and pulling the "well, I am her mom" card.
5. I can't even remember the last time I said the F word outloud, but I say it in my head ALL THE TIME.
6. I never use the term hate but I HATE Heidi Montag, Spencer Pratt and Justin Bobby.

BONUS
7. I let me kids watch TV sometimes I don't feel bad about it one single bit.



Thanks for the comments about dealing with my mother. Today was day one, and it was ok. It was a short visit, which was good because I can only take her in small doses.

Ramble Rant.

My mom is returning from an extended vacation with her husband (for the 15th year in a row-no really, this is the 15th year). It started when I was in Jr High, and now I am married with 2 kids. She's missed a lot, but always tried to butt in when she is here. Anyway, I am bummed out because her presence just stresses me out. What I had previously considered to be her quirky ways, now seem a bit crazy and uhh... bizarre. I totally trust her to watch my kids (and it's a nice reprieve) but then we have issues. Because in her twisted little head I think she thinks that my kid is me when I was that age. And since she chose her husband (the man she cheated on my dad with) over her 3 kids, she has some making up to do. Like take my kid to McDonalds even though I said no. Also my kid is 3 now very smart. It's gonna be hard when she leaves again, and I have to try and explain it to my kid.

That's all. I feel insight full all of the sudden.

Give me strength. She'll be here in 1 day.

Updates

• I opened and Esty shop and I really hope it's going to be successful! If you want to know the addy, email me.
  
• My diet is going well. I've been working out and counting calories, and cutting off wine and other booze so that's some calories lost. The bummer is that I am sick and the last thing that I want to do right now is exercise.
• My kid is doing well with the potty training. She keeps holding her poops and I am not sure what to do about that.
• I can see into the future that this kid is not going to want to be told what to do and that scares me. Sometimes it's like she's a rotten teenager in a 2.5 year old body.
• The other kid who is 1 has done everything sooner than her older sis including, sitting, rolling over and walking months earlier in fact, except talking. She babbles a lot and says mommy and daddy and hi and baba, but that's all. Is this normal for the 2nd sib? Maybe she's the quiet one? She sure is super happy all the time.
  
• I'm pretty excited that I am hosting Thanksgiving this year at our house, even if my MIL does come. My hope is that if she comes for Tday she won't come for Christmas.
  
• I nearly filleted my finger the other night with a butter knife. It is so gross. Husband wrapped it up and stopped the bleeding. I prob could have used a couple of stitches, we butterfly bandaged it instead. No ER for me!
• I am stoked that fall is here. The bummer is that I am caffeine free and can't enjoy the beloved pumpkin spice fraps.
• That's all for me. Hope everyone is enjoying the lover-ly fall.
  

Moooo

I've been really bad about taking good care of myself recently. After the birth of both of my girls I've gained 50lbs. In less than 4 years. True, I had 2 kids in 3 years, but still, it's bad. So while I have been really good at justifying my rapid weight gain, I have done nothing to stop it or to lose it. So, I've started a pretty regimented work out program and serious calorie counting. I don't mind the calorie counting, because it's allowing me to still eat the yummy things that I like (excluding things like frappachinos, cheese, chocolate and bread.) I also really like the exercising because it's burns calories of course, but I am enjoying the extra burst of energy. I've lost a little bit of weight already and can't wait to meet my goals. I really don't want to be a cow anymore.

Worst Mom

My almost 3 year old drinks alot. (That sounded funn.) She drinks water and apple juice, although the apple juice is 1/4 juice and the rest water, but anywaaaay. I try to be diligent about not letting the cups sit out, but she must have hid one or somehting because last night she took a drink of one and made a gross face and started making some kind of choking noise.

As if that wasn't bad enough, she woke up last night crying and smelling like throwup, something she never does.

Go ahead, nominate me for Worst Mom.

Play Date Dillema

My almost 3 year old and I just returned from a B-day party at a local park. It was for a little boy we know. He just turned 3 and has a 4 year old brother who my kiddo plays with. Anyhow, I hesitate a lot to spend time with this particular family because their kids are rough. And they don't listen, and sorry to admit it, but they are kind of dirty too. They never have shoes on are manners are atrocious. So we don't have too many play dates. I like their mom, but she's kind of loopy and one of those mom's who is always waiting for a photo op. It sort of exhausting.

Then I started thinking about this, and I realize I have another friend who has kids that my kids like to spend time with and I feel the same way about them. Although, I do like that mommy a little better. But even she's a bit of a space case.

I am not a clean freak, or the type of mom that is following her kids all around the play ground. I do carry a lot of Purelle who doesn't? I am not uptight or super strict about things. I kind of just go with the flow, but do appreciate order. Anyway, my kid likes playing with these boys, but always ends up having some bad habits and attitudes when playtime is over, such as hitting and telling me no. I don't dig it.

So while I have feel genuinely (a little) bit bad that I have sort of distanced myself from these moms (because of their children), aren't I supposed to approve of who my kids spends time with? My kids are only almost 3 and barely 1. When is the right time to start filtering friends? Am I too picky? Am I some kind of jerk? I hate play dates.

Well, DUH!

Guess what? Even Clay Aiken did it!

We Know You Are Gay, and it's OK.

I have a brother who is 6 years younger than me. He's the youngest of us three kids, I am the oldest. We have always been close. Even when my folks divorced and he lived far, far away, we would write and talk on the phone. So to say that I know him well, is very true. And also when I say that he is a total homosexual hiding way, way, way deep in the depths of the proverbial closet, it's true too.

I guess it started early, he always exhibited signs of being gay. And a few years back, my mom and my dad both found gay porn on their computers that my bro had used. Pages, and pages and pages of it. Now he is in college, bouncing around different jobs and whatnot. He's 23. He's lived in a few different places where he has rented and shared rooms. He's very much busy body and loves to be in everyone's business. He also thinks that he knows everything, including parenting and family management. Since he is more on his own now, and lives about 30 from the nearest relative, he has been exercising his right to dress in what he calls a very "metro-sexual", as he calls it, way. For example, he has come to my house wearing a fedora, and a vest. Jonas Brothers style.

About 2 years ago my husband and I invited him toa church that we had been going to, and he became very involved in it. We ended up stepping away from the church because it was not the right place for us to be. The congregation was too young, and their soul mission was to win souls for Jesus, via intimidation (not really, pressure and guilt. Ok, I guess that was dramatic, but the point is-we ended up not liking the church and left. My bro stayed. And by staying, he jumped thru all the church requirements, and did all the things necessary to "move up" the ranks and has become quite a little wannabe leader.

anyhow, it's no big deal to me if he is gay. Two of my BFF's are gay. I would still accept him as I do now. Actually I might respect him more, because right now he appears to be living a big fat lie. Which is sad. And his overcompensation for trying to prove that he's not gay is just wrong.

I don't think I could ever confront him on this. He would deny it. But it is so obvious. What to do?

More MIL Madness.

My MIL lives about 400 miles away. She has no job. She has NO responsibilities. She complains to my Husband all the time that she misses our kids and blah blah blah. We invite her to come up all the time, and I have even told her that our home is always open for her to visit whenever she wants because I don't want it to seem like my husband and i think that she is a lunatic and that we secretly beyond ecstatic that she lives far away. This Sat we are having a family only 1st bday party for my youngest and she's not coming because she doesn't want to drive. And she hasn't even RSVP'd she just isn't responding to our invite. GRRRR. My husband told me that if she EVER mentions missing our kids again, he's gonna tell her to "shut her face." Good for him! At least I don't have to talk to her.

Am I The Only One....

...who is totally O-V-E-R Oprah?

I mean seriously. I am so over her. I think she's pretentious and annoying. I see her only like this now.

Politics

How do you feel about the news that John McCain's VP pick, Sarah Palin's 17 year old, unwed daughter is pregnant?

Personally, I think it's reality and it's doesn't bother me at all.

FIGURES!

So my last post discussed my worries about being a good hostess and catering to my sister in laws stupid needs. Thanks for all the advice---you are all so wise!

However, it wasn't needed because she flaked at 9:30pm the night before via text message.

Did she offer to pay for the $150.00 tickets that we bought on her behalf (with the knowledge that she would have to pay us back?) NO. Did she even say sorry? NO! Am I surprised? NO!! What a jerk.

Now when ever someone says or does something that is incredibly thoughtless and rude, we say "OMG that is sooooo ______ _______." (Sorry, can't revel her name.)

What To Do?

So the hubs and I are meeting my BFF (and one of his pals) at a sporting event this weekend. We are tailgating and staying the night without kids...YIPEE! I love to cook so I am excited to make some sausages with dipping sauces, grilled chicken with my own spice blend and various other delicious and naughty delights. We got a huge cooler and planning on having some serious unwind time since normally we have our kiddos and responsibilities. Not this weekend though!

We are all excited to go and then I remember (dun dun duuuuuun) that my SIL and flavor of month are coming too. Grrreat. First of all they haven't paid us for the tickets that we got which is a total of $125.00 that I am sure we will get stiffed for. Next, his sister is a (fake) vegetarian. I swear she still eats meat. So, she would tell you that it's because she thinks that nothing should die to become food and because meat is so unhealthy! But since she smokes Marlboro Reds and drinks practically every night, and lives off Jack in the Box tacos so how concerned is she with her health. And animal rights? She once left her dog here for 6 months, never called about it, never sent money for food-NOTHING. Whew. That felt good.


Anyway....here's my question:

Knowing that she is a vegetarian, do I have to make something different for her??? Would you? Why or why not? Thanks, C's.

oh and PS: she won't eat fish.

Three things...

...that I am looking forward to are....

1. going shopping alone later
2. a mini vacay with the hubs and my bff this weekend
3. when the day comes that i change my last diaper

How about you?

Pet Peeve Post

I was driving the other day and got stuck on our local talk radio show. He was talking about pet peeves and interviewing people (local "celebrities") about what their top five pet peeves are. Here are mine:

1. People (especially young people) who don't have common decency and courtesy. People who don't hold open doors for others, or people who are rude to servers and clerks or servers and clerks who are rude to patrons. It freaking makes me want to scream. How hard is it to be nice? Really? It's not hard. It's a lot harder to be a jerk. I honestly can say that I will always let someone merge, or cut in front of me at the grocery store if all they have is a few things when my cart is full. And the only reason that I do it is to be nice and I get a kick out seeing people be shocked at such a teeny tiny gesture. (And in case you were wondering, it does have a certain pay it forward factor that is nice too!)

2. People who say things like "When I used to work at the BBV of the BFD it was so hard." I have a theory that when people use acronyms casually to talk about things that you don't know about. I think that they are merely trying to sound intelligent and looking to reel you into asking them what "BBV of the BFD" means. Ughhh! I hate it! It's so annoying!

3. Customer service reps, servers and other people who I give money to who are JERKS. If you hate your job so much that you can't be bothered to be courteous or crack a smile, then you need to get a new job.

4. Woe is me/Chip on the shoulder/Energy sucker syndrome. Lately I have heard so many stories about people who think that there is a cosmic plan to attack them and make them fail. Yet these same people are doing NOTHING to change their situation. These people will blame society, their parents, the ex that broke their heart, their boss, the economy, the President, anyone but themselves for whatever is wrong with their life. I know people who have had HORRIBLE lives who have done nothing but turn it around and learn from it and grow and change and as a result they are happy, successful people. People like this are so suffering from their own stupidity. I want to scream at them: It's not always about you!

5. Ok, I know it's crazy, but I have to have my sheets smooth with no abominations. An abomination is when one corner of the fitted sheet is not on tight enough causing wrinkles. I know, I am a freak.

(Here's a few more)

• Picky eaters, and I am not talking about kids.
• Skinny Jeans.
• Teenage boys who look like they need a major haircut.
• Non-fat half caff soy mochachino latte drinkers.
• People who think that MySpace is real or who use it to gage their friendships.
• People who stop at green lights when turning right or people who stop at green arrows.
• Tweekers.
• Stupid bitches and we all know the type of broad that I am talking about.
  

How about you? What are some of your pet peeves?

4 years

Today is our 4 year wedding anniversary. I can't believe that it's been 4 years. I have to say that it's truly been amazing and wonderful. It hasn't been scary and hard. It's been easy and complicated but in a good way.

It's been a joy and can only hope that the next 4 and the 4 after that and the 4 after that and so on are just as good.

Three things...

...that made me happy today were:

1. Going shopping for several hours alone!!
2. Finding a great set of Stilla Eyeshadow, brushes and mascara at Costco for 16.00.
3. Discovering that my younegst baby girl actually does look like me when she smiles.

How about you?

Happy Thoughts

I've been reading a lot of posts lately about how hard it is to be mother. To be responsible for shaping another human being into a responsible, creative, nurtured, smart, and loving little person. It's a big confusing conundrum. I feel like so many other parents who feel confused, overwhelmed and under appreciated. (This is not to say that my husband is not appreciative. He is. Very much so and he frequently shows it.) But a 2 an almost 1 year old can't thank for you cleaning their poop out of the bathtub, or changing their diaper for the 12,097th time.

Whenever I start feeling this, I just try to tell myself that with each year, it will get easier and easier....right? At least they will understand crime and punishment? Right??? Someone please re-assure me. And lets not talk teenage years.

And I try to scoop up a kid and love on them for a few to remind myself that never again are they going to be this amazing age.

And, I also thank goodness I am not Kate. Then I try to picture what it would be like with 6 more children and I suddenly love life exactly how it is.

I Pity the Fool(s)

So I suppose that it's safe to say that the Hubs and his friend/former employee will not be making up anytime soon. My husband doesn't care that much and attributes his pals lack of drive, and testicles to be a result of being with Brunhilda. Because when he lived here before they were not together and he was a TOTALLY different person. That being said, can I just tell you MySpace is such an interesting place. She is still posting stupid status updates, and changed some wedding picture titles to name my Husband as the "A$&hole" and "Worlds Worst Best Man." As the wife, it makes me mad because if you knew my husband you would know what a kind, generous person he is. I want Brunhilda to know the truth, but I realize that people like her and her husband are their own demise, and will never escape it because they are too stupid to realize it. It's way too easy for them to blame people around them instead.

Anger, is that you?

...that woman is me! It's been a long time since I have felt actual anger. The kind that I just can't quickly move past. The sitch today has got me all in a tizzy and I hate it! Especially when the person who is provoking me doesn't even know the truth of the matter. And going to MySpace and posting jabs thru the status update is just ridiculous and immature. But some how I have let it make me really mad---like I want to call her mad and tell her to get her facts and then do her talking. It made me want to be immature and sink to her level!! I realize that someone as arrogant as she is not EVER going to get it, especially if her husband lies to her. But it still really bothers me that she is trying to provoke me. It's making me conjure up the old me who sorta liked to have drama and loved to put people in their place. It's also making me want to give her a big old does of reality with the back of my hand, but of course, that is so not me. I really hate being angry, so somehow I need to figure out a way to move on. Cocktail, anyone?

A Little Rant or My Head May Explode * updated

Hi C's!

Remember a while back when my husband had whirlwind trip back east to be the best man in his friends' wedding? Did I mention at that time that that friend was also one of our employees? Well, he was. We will call him H. He had worked for us since about September last year. He and my husband met about 5 year ago, just before we were getting married. We used to have great times together, cooking, drinking and hanging out. H moved to the east coast, and then moved back last year with his bride to be.

Yesterday, my husband had to fire him and it wasn't pretty. H was employed with us because he had all his tools, a truck and a certain level of skill that his job required. Over the past few months, he has totally lost all drive and motivation (could it be because that he was marrying Brunhilda?) and basically was not the best employee. He was constantly complaining about money and being poor and the rising gas prices etc but did nothing to help his situation by working harder or more. We are sure that he thinks because our name is on the business that we are incredibly wealth and we roll around in hundred dollar bills at night. Anyhow, he's no showed before because he found a better job (or so he thought) and the called begging for his job back. My husband said ok.

Yesterday my husband told him that he needed to drive his truck to the job, rather than his wife's little commuter car, because he needed to take his own tools to the job and couldn't leave them there. H's response was "Sorry, I can't I can't afford the gas." This was the straw that broke my husbands back. The job is about 25 minutes from his house. So, seeing that he refused to do his job as required, my husband told him to take the day off and that he would have his paycheck for him things got a little ugly and he ended up getting fired.

Today my husband brought H's tools and check to the job site for him to pick up. H came, and took his stuff and called my husband a f-ing asshole which has got me infuriated right now. Why, you ask? Because my husband is anything but that. And apparently H cannot see what he did wrong here. I am furious that we spent more than one thousand dollars for my husband to be his best man and that he is so rude and ungrateful that he can't perform his job as required because the price of gas is so high!! Gas prices affect us as well, but you don't see me telling him that I can't afford to pay him because of the economy. I am not complaining, owning a business costs a lot of money. For every 16 we pay an employee, we are actually paying 26+ because of workers comp, liability, and payroll taxes. Not to mention all the other business related expenses that we have. We are a little comfortable right now, but by no means rolling around in $100 bills, ya'll.

I suppose that the kicker is that he drove about 60 miles in his truck, to our home last weekend to BBQ and drink beer and hang out, but can't afford to drive to his job to get paid? Interesting. I have to say that H was a really cool guy in the past. Like, really cool. Very comfortable, and polite. I know right now, my husband is mad. But I would be hurt. And then mad again. Whatevs, I guess.

2:41 pm UPDATE: So H's wife went the mature route and posted something lame on myspace about hating it when people say they are your friend and don't give a sh&t about your well being. Just wondering--is it my responsibility to make sure that her husband does is job or are we supposed to pay him to be lazy? Just asking. Obvs he didn't tell his wife the whole truth! GRRRRRRRRR I am mad!)

I Really Hate Surprises

I LOVE my grandparents dearly. They come and visit us a lot and that's nice because it's hard to travel with kids. I love that my girls are getting to enjoy them the same way that I did when I was little. They are still vibrant and fun and silly.

BUT...

what makes them thinks that it's good to surprise a mom of 2 kids who tries to run a business from home with the following sentence, "We should be there in a few hours."

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Can't talk now, the cleaning products are calling my name.

Vs.

Things That Are Lame
1. When you leave a Diet Coke in the freezer and forget about it, only to wake up to a freezer that looks like a sparkling brown catacomb.
2. When you just can't find the right words. Two people I know what recently gone through some very traumatic and serious events. The kind of events that are heart wrenching and horrible, and seem like they are never going to get better. I NEVER know what to say. I feel like no matter what I say it's just not right.
3. When you get up very early, and feel energized and amazing until about noon and then you want to crash and take a nap but you can't because there is too much to do.

VS.

Things That Are NOT Lame
1. When you realize that it's 6:30 and that it is officially appropriate to have a small cocktail to help relax.
2. When you are ready to make a really delicious dinner for a very hard working husband-who really, really deserves it.
3. When you realize that it's about 1.5 hours away from bedtime for your kids and that you have Tivo'd Project Runway!

Yipee, Trash TV!

Just the other day I was loving my Direct TV, and was looking for some trash tv. You know, some Rock of Love, or some Kardashians. There was nothing.

Then last night, after an exhausting weekend, as I lay in my comfortable bed with a sleeping house, I turn on VH1 and find Brooke Knows Best and I Love Money. I am not sure which one I am going to like better. I Love Money had Destiney and Meghan from Rock of Love. So something tells me that I Love Money will not disappoint, solely based on this clip I saw before drifting off to sleep...

• VH1 TV Shows
• Music Videos
• Celebrity Photos
• News & Gossip

3 Things

a few of my fab friends have commented that i have been missing, and are wondering if i am ok. yep, i am ok. i am alive, i have a wonderful husband, some great kids and life is pretty good. i guess i am suffering from what i refer to as the "dalies". my daily schedule has become monotonous and routine and i wonder how long i can keep it up without going insane. then i feel ungrateful and stupid for not being BEYOND THRILLED that I have the life i/we always wanted. there are people out there way less fortunate and i am complaining???? what gives me the right? i am such a jerk.

so in an effort to be less cynical and more positive, i want to know 3 positive things about your life. they can be as simple as not having any laundry to fold to something more complex like surviving a nasty breakup.

it's always better to think positive and reflect on the things that we should be thankful for. what are three things that are good in your life?

(i'll bet you get a bit of lift just from thinking of those 3 things! =)

Your MIL: how crazy is she?

I always imagined my MIL and I would be pals, shopping buddies and at least friends. We are far from it. I wish that she our relationship was different. I do feel that I have tried to do some things to better our relationship, but they never seem to work. Even my husband agrees so that makes the sitch a little better. He's used to his moms' crazy shenanigans, something that I am still getting used to after being married for almost 4 years.

What's the oddest, rudest, or plain right lamest thing your MIL has done to you? (or your own relative if your MIL doesn't apply.)

In Conclusion

One thing that Husband and I have learned throughout our relationship is that keeping a cool head and not over reacting to situations (especially situations that we have no control over) really pays off. We had money sitches, health scares, car break downs, family drama etc, etc, and every time we kept it together and tried to see the positive in the ordeal, it worked out just fine. Sometimes better than fine.

So that's what Husband did this weekend and he says that it was actually really a cool wedding and he is glad he went. I am relieved that he found a way to enjoy himself. Isn't it a wondrous thing what a good attitude (and 3 beers and 3 margaritas) can do?

Oh, and somehow, my MIL turned all his misfortune in his travels to be about her. She called me and was snippy and quick with me in asking "did my son make it to NJ ok?" I guess he didn't answer when she called him. She must have said ten times that he doesn't answer his phone. When she knew I had talked to him several times, she got mad. She didn't even ask how the kids or I were. BIZARRE!! Thank goodness Husband always sides with me.

Thanks for letting me vent about this neighbors. It feels so good!

sorry

sorry neighbors. in reading my last post it came off a little wrong. i guess i should clarify that i was mad because i think that my husband was hurt. hurt because no one really cares enough to go and pick him up. he is traveling 3000 miles away, to a big city that he doesn't know.

it wasn't expected by him that someone would pick him up, but they had already said that they would. the fact that they backed out and don't care enough to try and help him resolve the issue is what made him hurt. which made me pissed actually, but i didn't mean to come off like some big demanding beeotch. and i swear to you that i would go whereever i needed to go to pick up out of town guests. especially if one of them was my best man. that's all.

Are you Effing Kidding Me?

(first of all, sorry i know that graphic is rude, but that's totally how I am feeling.)

So as I previously whined, my husband is going to NYC to be the best man in a wedding.

Today he drove south about 100 miles to the airport. His flight was canceled with the only option being to fly out on Friday. So he came home.

So I canceled that and got him a new flight about 100 miles north of us. So tomorrow he will drive another hundred plus miles in the opposite direction to head east.

After spending all day figuring this out, and canceling tickets and getting new ones etc, etc, etc....the parents of the guy getting married will no longer come and pick my husband up at the airport because he has to fly into JFK now rather than the original arrival airport of Newark. So now, no one will come to pick him up because they don't want to drive into the city-about 65 miles away. ARE YOU EFFING KIDDING ME? Their demeanor/ attitude is basically "figure it out. "

Same applies to him getting to the airport for his trip home. "Oh, well we know that you are coming all the way from the west coast to a city you have never been to, to be here and that it's cost you close to 1500 dollars, but we don't want to come to the city to pick you up so just figure it out."

Here's the tally for just US for this wedding of our friend to a ridiculous girl that we don't really want him to marry:
absurdly expensive tux rental: 200
1st ticket: 500
gas to airport: 75
gas back from airport: 75
(trip to bev mo for liquid strength:50)
2nd ticket: 460
gas to second airport: 75
Taxi from airport in NY:100
Taxi back to airport:100
parking: 80
gas back from airport: 75
GRAND TOTAL: $1330.00

My husband is agro about this and I am too. What kind of jerks just do that? We discussed this and no matter where someone we knew was coming into we would go and get them. Even if it was inconvenient or a hassle because that's what normal do!! They don't just say figure it out.

Gotta go, a stiff drink is calling my name.

Why Dirty Dancing RULES

First and foremost the soundtracks are amazing. There are 2-the one that you probably had in the 80', on tape. And a super secret one that has songs by Solomon Burke and Otis Redding. It you have I tunes or whatvs look it up!

Second, for some reason, even though I find Patrick Swayze completely unattractive, creepy and quite gross, I am totally in love the with movie. The characters are so interesting and plus it has dancing! It's been on satellite late at night lately, and I always get sucked into it----as if the outcome is going to be different and Johnny isn't still going to leave Baby stuck in the Catskills with her parents and kooky sister. Also, I could totally relate with Baby's geekiness. I always felt uncool and awkward like her and wanted to fit in with the cool kids. PLUS-hello?!?! There's dancing.

In other Dirty Dancing news...if you haven't watched this already you should. The first time I saw it was I was pregnant and a hormonal mess and it made me cry for some reason.

What's a movie that sucks you in everytime?

So sweet

My child who has been testing me lately with the terms NO and I don't want to, just came up to me and rubbed my arm and said "I love you mommy." And then she ran away giggling.

Then the next thing that she said was "I am tired. I want to take a nap now."

Glorious. A wonderful day, indeed.

Interested in Swapping?

I have a ton of hardly used stuff-mainly beauty products, hair styling goo and make up. It seems I am an impluse buyer and often buy things that I don't end up liking or using. I hate to throw it away.

I've heard of friends "passing" such things at girls night out. Also things like shoes, purses and clothes.

Ever heard of this? Ever done it? Would you consider doing a beauty product swap if I organized it? or is that weird?

Feeling Hot, Hot, Hot!

O M G it is so hot here. Generally our summers here are hot, but it was 114 yesterday! And thats south of me near the ocean!!

Ask me how thankful I am for a kick butt AC.

Very, very thankful.

Todays high is 109. Ugh!

How hot is it where you live? What are you doing to keep cool?

I'm Frustrated Too, Kid!

I think I should say that I am NOT an alchy in case my last post hinted at that. But some days are worse than others.

Today I feel like a bad mom. My daughter (28 months) woke up at 5am being defiant, and not wanting to go back to sleep. I got so frustrated with her her and yelling and whining that I wanted to strangle her (figure of speech so don't worry). She was crying and sobbing that she didn't want this or that and I almost lost it. I was doing all I could to keep her from waking up her dad and her little sibling. It didn't work.

Once she did wake up for the day, she had about 5 time outs in the first 5 minutes for telling me things like:
No I don't want to!
NOOOOOOOOO!
NOT NOW!
I don't need it anymore!! (Just her version of saying no)

I watched the vein in her neck bulge out while her face got BRIGHT RED from frustration. Over what you ask? Stickers. Yes, people Princess stickers. And then marker and then lunch and then her cup. The yellow one, not the green one that I picked.

Then she fell down and needed me to kiss her owie and she turned back into my sweet little girl. We cuddled for a few minutes and then she patted my head. It made all the drama in the morning worth it.

Why all the anger? Is this something that we are teaching her? We are very calm and easygoing parents and spouses. We don't yell. Where is she learning this? And when will it end? I give her some slack because she is a baby still. What happens when she is a teenager and knows darn well she is being defiant and unreasonable?

Am I The Only One....

....Who looks forward to the occasional cocktail after a day of screaming kids? Or even just a day of being a mom.

I am just curious because lately I have really been looking forward to unwinding with a spirit or two (or three) com 9 pm. A new mom friend of mine also referred to being driven to stiff drink after a day of trying to figure out how to make your baby (or babies) happy. So I must not be alone, right?

How do you unwind at the end of a long day? And do you have kids? Does your hubby join you?

Bleh...

I am sick. Like the sickest I have been in a while. I couldn't even cook my husband his special super duper father's day brunch.

Remember being a kid, and being sick. And someone would bring you chicken soup or some 7up and some medicine? And all you wanted to do was get up and play, but you had to stay in bed and rest?

I MISS THOSE DAYS! I WANT TO STAY IN BED AND REST!

I wish someone would make me stay in bed. Is is too much to ask my 2.5 year old to take care of her 8 month old sister? Just kidding!

No New York For Me!

So...my hubs' pal is still marrying that girl who is totally not my cup of tea. And My husband is in the wedding. And the wedding is in New York-where I have never been and always wanted to go. And guess what...

...I AM NOT GOING!

Lack of childcare has ruined my whirlwind trip with the hubs to the east coast. With my mom gone, and my dad and his wife in Europe during that time our local options are out. My MIL could do it, but is currently hoping a job will magically land in her lap looking for a job, she doesn't want to be 500 miles away from her own city. Totally understandable, actually. And upon thinking about being 3000 miles from my kids I started feeling better about not going.

Both kids have had plenty of overnights with family. But the thought of my MIL being here with no back up, started freaking me out. True, she has had 2 kids of her own, but she doesn't see my kids that often. She's only seen the littlest one 2 times since birth (she's almost a year) and the oldest one about 5 times. I am sure that she would do just fine with them, but the worries and the scenarios started freaking me out in a totally over analytical way that is so not me.

My husband is not stoked about traveling alone either, I don't blame him. So I am going to try to hide my jealousy.

So while I am disappointed that I will not be in the Today Show audience, seeing the Little Mermaid, or gallivanting in Central Park with my Love, I feel sort of relieved in a very wishy-washy sort of way. It's not like this is going to be our only opportunity to visit the Big Apple.

Weekend Recap Randomness

Yesterday I opened our local news paper and was shocked to find a picture that I sent in.....
My mom left yesterday and of course it was a tad dramatic. She cried. I didn't. She'll be gone until the new year I am sure. But they will act like they will be back in Oct, but then keep changing their plans last min. LAME.

I have a slight hangover, but had a good time with the hubs last night. We rocked out and had some good laughs like the good ol' days before kids.

Who am I kidding, these are the good ol' days and I wouldn't even go back! Life really is good.

This is detox week where we eat really healthy and no booze.

This weekend all bets are off.

15Things I have Done Today...

1. Eaten some linguine with clam sauce. Surprisingly not as bad as you think.
2. Messed with my new hair do, and decided that while I like my new modified bob-ish hair cut, I makes me look fatter.
   
3. Read some of my book while lounging in the back yard on a chaise lounge. No kidding, I really did this. (One kid is with Grandma, one kid was napping and one husband was with the guys.)
4. Watched 2 only ok movies on satellite, Sliding Doors and The Holiday.
5. Played kissy face with baby after nap time.
6. Did some laundry.
7. Actually folded it and put it away.
   
8. Ate a Klondike bar
9. Let baby taste Klondike Bar.
   
10. Shopped online. Got a really cute peasant type shirt.
    
11. Pondered telling the ex-pal who is posting antagonizing blogs towards me where she can shove it, but then changed my mind and decided to take the high road.
12. Had 2 beers after midnight while somewhat waiting for hubs to come home.
13. Realized that this is only like his 2nd ever "Guys Night Out" since we have been married...that I can remember, and I honestly can't recall the one before tonight. Same for me . Does this make us boring?
14. Maybe I like boring, ok?
15. Felt thankful that my husband won't drink and drive.
    
16. Thought about eating midnight snack, but then decided that beer sounded better.
    Hey, I ain't driving anywhere.
    

OK, Now I am Mad

So before I claimed not to be mad, just disconnected. Well, now I am mad.I told my husband to round up bail money because I was going to kill my mom this morning.

My mom and her husband are going to be leaving soon. For the 15th year in a row (nearly half my life). Supposedly everyone who actually stays in the same place is supposed to change their entire lives to accommodate their flightiness and incapability of staying put for any extended period of time.

Never can she give me a straightforward answer, "Oh I am not sure if we are going on Friday or Sunday. But that's OK with me, I don't even care anymore, I'll just be in the RV when it's pulling out." Or in a sort of flaky-whimsical voice "Oh, who knows how long we will be gone, that's part of the joy of traveling." Like she is such a free spirit she just can't grow roots.

Recently the sound of her voice has been infuriating me. She's mad when things don't go right and they have issues preventing them from hitting the road. She complains about having to put together the RV with everything they need to be long gone for months. My retort to her complaints (in my head and out loud to my husband) is: IF IT'S SUCH A PAIN IN THE ARSE DON'T GO THEN! And if you do, don't complain about it because once again you are choosing to go.

And don't be all weepy and sad when you leave. It's your choice. Don't be all sensitive when we all just move on with our lives and continue on without tears and long goodbye speeches. We are used to it! That's why we spend holidays with my pops, because he lives in the same place 100% of the time. Like normal people do.

My eldest kid is now with my mom spending some quality time before they take off. My kid lovvvvvvvvvvves my mom (because she is 2 and too young to be annoyed by her yet) and so I am happy that she gets to spend time with her, although I know it will be hard when she wants to go to her house and I have to tell her she can't. In the last 3 days she has literally told me 10 different scenarios about when and what time they will leave and we have made arrangements for me to pick up my kid. Then she'd call minutes, hours or the next day to proclaim "Plans have changed, again." I almost driove the 705 miles to snatch up my kid out of total and complete irateness.

Just figure it out, and do it! I am so over it.

(And now, I shall sulk and feel slighty bad that I am such a mean hateful person.)

SaTC

Here's where I get way too over analytical....

So Sex and the City dropped and women all over the world are jumping for joy. It's caused quite an uproar over the past few years because everyone said that they would never do a movie. I liked the TV show. It was brash and crude and pretty much a lot like me in it's peak. I loved to watch the fashion and the glamor of the city. The architecture and the shoes alone had me wishing to move to NYC.

But then several thing happened and it make me not like the show so much. #1 I got married to an amazing man and realized that dating is not all it's cracked up to be. And neither is being single. #2 That episode where Carrie and Big did it in his apartment, and then Natasha came home to find Carrie, and chased after her and fell and broke her tooth. And while Carrie did the right thing and walked away, she still ends up with him in the end? True he's handsome, successful, charming and rich, but I can't take it!!! Big is not worth the shame or the doubt that Carrie SHOULD feel! (Although, Chris Noth is one of those weird choices I have made when it comes to celebrity crushes, right along side Simon Cowell and Hugh Grant.)

In a movie/series that is supposed to empower women, isn't it odd that the heroine ends up with the guy that married someone else, cheated on her with someone, and over all treated her like crap, except on the rare occasion when he had time to be better? Is that really the type of thing that young women or women in their 30's should be aspiring to?

Is It So Wrong.....

...that i just clipped on my Ipod so that I wouldn't hear my 2.5 year old who is screaming in her room that she doesn't want to take a nap?

I way prefer music to screaming tantrums.

Disconnected, not Mad

I feel bad that I DON'T feel bad. Is that bad? My mother is leaving soon for a trip. She has been going on trips in her RV with her husband since I was in Jr. High. Last year was my 10 year high school reunion if that helps tell you how long she's been traveling. She comes back for a few months at a time, but generally spends most of the year on the road. She comes back for special occasions graduation, my wedding, the birth of my kids. She'll stay for a while and then they are off again. When she is "here" she tries to just jump in like we have the perfect family. We don't and that's annoying that she can't just deal.

Over the years, I have simply become accustomed to it, and it's not a big deal. I don't cry when she leaves. I don't feel that sorry for her if it's more her husbands' idea to be gone, because marriage is a compromise, and if she wanted to stay that bad, she would figure it out. I don't feel sad when she calls me and is sad that she misses us or the kids. I simply disconnect myself from the whole things because for about 13 years, this has been how it is. She's flighty, I get it. her marriage isn't great, I get it.

It's annoying, but it doesn't really make me sad or mad. And that in itself makes me mad. But not enough to try and change it. Not enough to talk to her about. There really isn't anything to talk about. She's very dramatic and I couldn't even stand to have a conversation with her that would result in her crying. It's too dramatic for me. That makes me feel bad too.

Licking

Does your kid lick you? Because lately, my 2.5 year old daughter has been licking me and wiping her tear/snot/drool on me with enthusiastic fervor. Seriously, it's gross. Why does she do this?

Public Service

is it just me, or does Indy still have it after all these years?

Revelations

Update: my play date went great and i can't wait to do it again. she was super fun, totally relaxed and an inspiration considering what she has on her hands!

my 29th year has been good so far. had some fun times with my hubs and the kiddos and feel like this is going to be a great year.

i am still feeling a little sad about my lack of friends though. i have a few fabulous ones that i wish so badly lived closer! maybe it's als a bit of not being able to relate to too many people in my life. my husband and I get a long fabulously and we pretty much have the same views on the important things (parenting, work, politics, food (LOL!)). i am very thankful this, because I read things on True Mom Confessions that are so disheartening. I read things like "my husband is such an ass. i hate him. he is worthless and irritates me." my response to that is "then why are you married to him, idiot. if he is such an ass, you are too for choosing to marry him, and if things changed and you did nothing about it. it actually infuriates me when people say things like this. but anyway, moving on...

i can't relate to my siblings, my mother, my MIL my SIL or my mother's husband. i wish i could because i think that those are supposed to be anchoring relationships in one's life, no? i have tried to relate to my MIL but she is very angry and bitter, and we have nothing in common. same with his sister. i feel bad about this, because i could do more to be more accepting and forgiving, but i don't really. my husband feels the same, except they are close because they are mother and son. same with my mom and her husband. i don't get them and i don't really try to. i don't try to be tolerant or accepting. i just plain don't agree with them and the choices that they make and i can't come to terms with it. i find myself being annoyed with them even though they are totally helpful with my kids sometimes. i think that my mom is literally starting to lose it from being wardened by someone for the last 15 years and it's starting to show BIG TIME. i kind of feel bad about this, but then again, no one put a gun to her head to marry him.

I do have a good relationship with my dad and step mom because they are normal!! not only can i totally relate to them, they are sane.

i think more so than the fact that i don't have relationships with such people who should be pivotal in my life, it's that i am so lame, i can't be more tolerant of their quirks. you know that by quirks i mean things that irritate me so i want to scream, right?

how do you get past these type of things? or am i the only one in which "kill em with kindness" is not working?

29 and feeling fine

in a few hours i will turn 29. and i will begin my best year ever! woot!

To all the Mom's

Happy Mother's Day to all you mom's out there!

May today be filled with sleeping in, pedicures, massages, champagne brunch, naps, shopping, martini's, shoes, or whatever makes you happy! YOU DESERVE IT!

Wish Me Luck...

...because I have a Mommy play date tomorrow. I am meeting the wife of a good friend of mine at a local farmers market for some strolling and coffee and shopping. She has triplets! But she is totally in control and with it.

I've hung out with her before and I really like her. She's a bit younger than me, but we still have a lot in common. I am hoping that this can be the beginning of a beautiful new friendship.

Things are LAME

Thing #1 is that Microsoft would invent a product that my husband would fall in love with, that has such a mechanical bug they added red lights to indicate the mechanical failure? Xbox 360 is on it's way to the repair center along with millions of other consoles. In reality, the hubs doesn't play very often unless the girls and I are out because it's not appropriate for an influential 2 year old to watch her dad kill zombies or whatever they are. But It still irks me that they knowingly sell things where 30% of them fail and must be repaired.

Thing #2 is that my oldest has had about 4 time outs before lunch.

Things #3 is that there is 4 large brown spots in my yard.

Thing #4 is that my poor husband woke up in the middle of the night feeling like he was getting sick. Booo. Now I will insist that he takes Airborne and drinks a TON of water.

Thing #5 is that Jason Castro lasted as long as he did.

Thing #6 is the fact that I am still bothered by the incompetent service I was provided with at a local Subway. The sammy maker was shouting to her friend in the back about going to a beach party. Then she informed me that they were out of tomatoes. Usually this particular Subway is operated by the owners. But that night it was operated by a couple of teens who thought they were too good to work at the place. LAME. But what's lamer is that I am still annoyed. I hate poor service.


Thing #7 is that I feel a deep sense of loss when I have to prune my roses. Seriously. I know that is so ridiculous, but for reals!!

Thing #8 is that while I will see the Sex in the City movie, I find myself not being able to relate to the series anymore. While watching the episode where Big and Carrie are having an affair and Natasha comes home and then finds Carrie, and then knocks her tooth out had me mad! I think I will blog more about this later....

My Declaration

In one week from today, I turn 29. A year from that I will be 30. That will mean that I have spent 15 years feeling overweight and unhappy about it. Therefore, I have decided to declare my 29th year as the that I finallyget skinny get down to the weight that I am comfortable with.

I plan on doing so by eating much healthier and limiting my intake of my favorite things such as chocolate and cheese and basically most carbs.

I also plan on walking a min of 3 days a week with the girls.

I also hope to do yoga on the mornings that we don't walk.

I also plan on venting alot during this time because I love too cook and I love to eat and I love bad food. And wine.

I hope that this plan will give me more energy and drive to be active, as well as make me more comfortable in clothes, and dare I say it? A bathing suit.

I Need Some Friends...

..or at least one. Welcome to my pity party.

I have a few friends. My BFF from high school lives in LA and while I love her to death, I rarely see her. But when I do it's great! My closest pal that lived near me moved to freaking halfway across the country and I only talk to her about once every 3 weeks. I have a very close friend who I talk to a lot but she lives far away too. Which is a major bummer because I love her to death and know that she would be "the one" (lol) if only she was closer. Boo whoo!

I had a very close friend that was married to my step brother. She basically lost her mind in a meth-infused breakdown and we have lost touch. I am glad because she has become someone that I would never even associate with. Not so much because of the drugs-everyone f's up. I guess I just have a thing about being friend with total pathological liars, manipulators, and over all nutballs. This person is not just a little crazy but clinically insane. Which is weird because in the 2+ years we were close, she did not convey the crazy at her apparent full capacity. She's making up for that now. But that in itself is a whole different story. (One that I am sure that I will talk about here eventually.)

Anyway, I wonder what happened to all my pals? I don't have that one really good pal that I can confide in and talk to about ANYTHING. The one I can call and make her go to farmers market with at the last minute, or who I can call just to chat with. I have some close blogger friends who I really cherish and am so happy to have "met." I feel closer to some of them than I do some of my friends I have in "real life." Maybe it's because they can't judge me, at least to my face.

My lack of friends, it's my fault too. Becoming a mom has made me lazy. And picky. And I have been bad about being a friend too. And being married has made it a wee difficult because my husband has friends I like who have super annoying wives or girlfriends whom I hate. What's wrong with me?

I guess this comes from me wanting to go for girls night out in a few weeks for my birthday and realizing that I have no one to go with....

Waaah!

I Have Blogger ADD/Sex

So as you will see I have not quite figured out how I want this blog to look. I like pink though, so that's good! i added some music at the bottom. (Love that song, Mercy. Love it.) I may be making more changes in the weeks to come. We will see...Moving on.

Let's talk about SEX. I think most of the tenants in the Pink Apartment are moms. And alot of moms have the same problem, uh, issue....lack of sex.

For me, it's a combo of how disgustingly fat I have become poor body image, and exhaustion from chasing kids around all day. My husband is great and assures me that he still finds me hot as ever and yadda, yadda, yadda, but I still feel really...just, well, gross. I guess having 2 kids in 3 years will do that to you. Well that, and cheese. And chocolate. And carbs. And wine.

Take my new poll and tell me about your sex life, or lack there of.

And Now I Get a Tad Political

So we all know a little bit about Jeremiah Wright and his crazy comments including the assertion that the United States brought on the 9/11 attacks with its own "terrorism." He has made statements suggesting that the US government created AIDS.

More quote ables from Wright "The government gives them the drugs, builds bigger prisons, passes a three-strike law and then wants us to sing 'God Bless America.' No, no, no, God damn America, that's in the Bible for killing innocent people," he said in a 2003 sermon. "God damn America for treating our citizens as less than human. God damn America for as long as she acts like she is God and she is supreme."

Today at the National Press Club he stated lied that his words were taken out of context. You can listen to the speech here .

You can listen to his ideals about whites suppressing the black community, inventing AIDS and WMD's here.

Today he was given the opportunity to defend his words, and he said that this was not about himself, or Barack Obama but it was an attack by the media and America against black churches.

Any thoughts on this?

Calling all Moms

The same kid that is having issues with saying please is 27 months. She is really smart and has great verbal skills. She has always been ahead of her age group in books and what not. So why does she only have like a %10 interest in potty training?

She has a musical potty, magazine, princess panties and the whole 9 yards. She even gets marshmallows when she goes.

So mommy's of the Pink Apartment, got any tricks that you want to share for potty training?

I guess that I should mention that we waited to potty train until after her sister was born. We wanted to make sure that we had the ability to be consistent and also felt that the transition period of having a new sibling would be too much all at once.

A Letter to My Kid

Dear 2 year old kid,

Don't you get it by now that if you don't say please you will not get raisins, yogurt, markers, or anything else that you want? Can't you understand that I hate not being able to give you what you want merely because you are being stubborn and won't say the magic words? Don't you realize that it's polite and courteous to say PLEASE?

I know that you can say it considering that you speak in sentences now and always that THANK YOU, THANKS MOM, THANK YOU VERY MUCH and other various forms of gratitude.

So why why why why why won't you just say please? Even when I won't give you want you want, you still won't say it! What's the deal?

Love,
Your Mother

Health Insurance

Today I get a letter from my girls' pediatrician saying that they no longer accept our insurance. Great! Just what I wanted to hear on a Monday morning. So I call the doc and see how much it will cost for the girls next round of vaccines if we pay cash. After the 30% discount for paying cash, it would have been about $400 for kid # and $600 for kid #2! Oh yeah and that doesn't include the $144 per kid physical charge.

Just when I am about to bang my head on the desk, the billing guy says "But why don't you just take them to the health department? They charge a flat fee."

Ok, I said.

I called the health department. Wanna know what they charge? $25.00. Yes, that's right twenty-five dollars. Not $25.00 per vaccine. Nope. They charge a $25.00 "office fee" and then the vaccines are free.

Feeling like this is sounding way too good to be true, I ask her if that's based on your income, is it a sliding scale? (We are self employed so we wouldn't likely qualify)

NOPE!
They just charge $25.00.
No strings.
No deductible.
No premiums.
Just twenty five stinking dollars.

SIbling #3?

Sooo. how many kids you have? I have 2. And they are close together (only 20 months apart). Motherhood is a joy. I love it. Most days. My husband is very helpful with the kiddos. He also is appreciative of the fact that I make dinner and keep house and all that. He always jokes that there is no way that he would want to switch positions with me.

So when our first was born, we were elated! I actually thought that we would have trouble conceiving because we had a few miscarriages before and I am ovarian challenged. (I only have 1 ovary.) But after a year of no B/C method, we found out we were expanding. And I don't mean just my waistline. Fast forward 1 year and we discover...SURPRISE! Baby # is getting a sibling. Once again we were thrilled, but surprised.

Don't get me wrong, these were the best surprises I have ever gotten. I am so loving how they are beginning to interact with each other. They love thier dad and they are great kids. Both sleep well and have been a joy. I pray that they will have a strong relationship. The kind that only sisters can share. The kind that I don't know about because I am the lone girl in a sea of brothers.

A very good friend of mine just had her fist baby. He's precious. My friend comes from a family of 5. A VERY CLOSE family of five. They are all pretty close in age, and they are all best friends. Seriously. Best friends. They all spend time with eachother. And now that some of her sibs are married, thier spouses are just as close too.

I
AM
JEALOUS!

I really am. My family is not close. My folks are divorced. I get along great with my dad and his wife. My mom and I have a strained relationship, but it's ok. But it's not anything that is super fantastic. My husband is only really in contact with his mom and 1 sibling and they are both nuts. Once again, did I mention that I am really wanting a big family where everyone loves each other and wants to be together?

So that bring us to this....how many more kids should we have? My hubs used to say 4 until our oldest got to be 2 and a bit of a hurricane. I know that it's not right to have kids for the sake of creating some big loving family, right? Or is that what we are supposed to encourage? I don't know. I want more kids....I think. Once my oldest is in kindergarten. That seems like a good time, right?

My kiddos are 27 months and 7 months right now. When do you think is the right time to start thinking about more?

Speak Now

Ok, so a very good friend of my hubs is engaged. He is engaged to the most obnoxious, arrogant, petty, ridiculous, immature, selfish beeotch that I have ever met. In fact, I can't even stand to be around her so if I have to, I generally drown my sorrows in beer. It's that bad. They fight over things like..... She's always complaining about money, even though she doesn't have a job. So when he wants to drive her small car to work to save money on gas (he drives a full sized truck) she bitches. Or she doesn't want him to drink but she smokes pot. Or she tags along when he goes on guys fishing trips. She has also belittled him in front of others and continually butts in when he needs alone or guy time. She is pretty much just an idiot. I n the past she has called me old, criticized my choice of flowers in my garden, and questioned my parenting--even thought she has now kids and is like 23.

Now, my hubs and I love our alone time. We need it. We think it's important to have a good relationship. And we rarely fight. So maybe I am partial. But I can't imagine being married to this.

So my husband is in the wedding. And it's back east and we are going and all that. I would never stand up and object, but isn't it like our responsibility to counsel him or something. She wants to have kids right away and while he doesn't I could totally she her getting knocked up to lock him in.

I know that our pal is a big boy and can make decisions for himself. But he's already said that they have stayed together out of being comfortable.

Are we supposed to say something? Or are we to forever hold our peace?

Stress

I have been feeling very stressed the past few weeks about something that I hate being stressed about. MONEY. It seems like my hubs and I have been on track for a while, even expanding our business at one point. Now suddenly it seem that the economy has caught up with us and we are feeling the strain big time. It's been a long time since I worried about paying bills and things. I am grateful for that. I do feel blessed that we have been successful in past years. I guess I just hate worrying about things like money. I know that's it's simply a season. A season that we have visited before and mostly likely will visit again. I wish I could just give it all up and not stress out like I have been. But it's making me moody and depressed and scared.

It's times that these that I think about smoking the most. Sometimes being an adult sucks. But who am I kidding, most of the time it's bliss.

Finished

I finished our taxes! And despite my initial fears, we made out ok and are actually getting a small refund! Woo whoo for itemized deductions!

I now have a total new respect for CPAs. You people are mathematical geniuses. I do not envy you one single bit.

And now...I am going to get ready to type my first post about my MIL.

More Bad Habits

Wanna know something about me that I HATE? I hate that I am such a procrastinator. Here it is April 13, and what am I still working on? Our taxes. Yep, I totally waited till the last minute. Why do it do this? Now instead of realxing with a nice glass of wine (who am I kidding!) or working on household chores, I am slaving away at the computer getting brain fry.

Our computer crashed in August of last year and I never went back to check that all of our recipets were still entered. Well, they weren't. So now, at my own doing, I am stuck going through each bank statement to make sure that we get all the deductions that we are allowed.

It's really not fun. And what makes it worse is that I have had several months to do this, and never did.

Are you a procrastinator? What do you always wait till the last minute to do? And if you are not a procrastinator, what's your secret?????

A Little About Me

1. I do have another blog. My family reads it. My friends read it. My mother in law stalks it. I soooo needed this place to vent and get it all out.
   
2. While I don't believe in astrology, I am a Taurus, but I don't tend to be stubborn.
3. I got married at 24.
4. I had my first kid at 26.
   
5. Before I was domesticated, I used live at the bar.
6. And where ever they sold shoes and clothes.
7. I worked really hard at the same job for almost 10 years before I became a mom.
8. Now I work even harder to stay at home and take care of 2 kids (ages 2.5 and 7 months)
9. I love to cook. I love to eat.
10. This would explain why I have gained about 50 lbs in the last 5 years. Well, the food and being pregnant for like 3 years straight.
11. I am very proud that I quit smoke three years ago.
12. I am disappointed that I still think about it all the time.
13. I love cleaning products and things that smell good.
14. I hate that I complain so much when life is actually really good.
    
15. My husband is beyond amazing, and I am not just saying that. We get along great.
16. I hate play groups.
17. I never feel like I accomplish what I want to in a day.
18. I like Pinot Grigio, Martini's and Corona's with lime.
    
19. I miss not having any responsibilities.
20. I own a successful business with my husband.
21. My parents divorced when I was 12 and my mom and I have a strained relationship on the inside. On the outside we pretend that things are ok.
22. I hate how fat I have become.
23. I love that my husband accepts me for who I am , even if my butt keeps growing.
24. I can't get enough reality tv.
25. I like to read but never can find the time.
26. My eldest daughter looks just like I did when I was her age.
    
27. I am a total and complete camera-a-holic and I am addicted to taking pictures.
28. I used to do extra, stand in and walk on work for TV shows and movies.
29. I am going to be 29 in about a month.
30. I am not at all apprehensive about turning 30.
    

Girl on Girl Hate/Stupidity

when i was growing up in HS it was pretty common to see to chicks fighting in the quad or in the halls. even a classroom or two. in fact my first day of high school i got bitch slapped by some little snatch and i ended up slamming her head into a locker before i gave her a black eye.

i am NOT proud of that. in fact i am ashamed and saddened that i let my anger get the best of me. but i am also proud that i didn't back down.

i saw on the news that several teens were arrested and will be tried as adults for kidnapping and harassing and assaulting a 14 year old.

what is wrong with people? did these kids actually think that this was ok?

i totally did my fair share of drug abuse from about 16 into my twenties. i drove drunk off my ass. i was wreckless and careless. but i did have some common sense.

how about the teens that posted a video on you tube showing the affects on a two year old after they gave her ecstasy?People are not really that stupid are they? I mean she was 2. she was obviously "rolling hard" as the other laughed at her. that poor little baby.

what in the eff are young people thinking? it scares me to death that my children will one day befriend some idiot who has idiots for parents and will get into trouble.

i am planning on locking my kids in their rooms till they are 18. and even then i may "lose" the keys.