SaTC

Here's where I get way too over analytical....

So Sex and the City dropped and women all over the world are jumping for joy. It's caused quite an uproar over the past few years because everyone said that they would never do a movie. I liked the TV show. It was brash and crude and pretty much a lot like me in it's peak. I loved to watch the fashion and the glamor of the city. The architecture and the shoes alone had me wishing to move to NYC.

But then several thing happened and it make me not like the show so much. #1 I got married to an amazing man and realized that dating is not all it's cracked up to be. And neither is being single. #2 That episode where Carrie and Big did it in his apartment, and then Natasha came home to find Carrie, and chased after her and fell and broke her tooth. And while Carrie did the right thing and walked away, she still ends up with him in the end? True he's handsome, successful, charming and rich, but I can't take it!!! Big is not worth the shame or the doubt that Carrie SHOULD feel! (Although, Chris Noth is one of those weird choices I have made when it comes to celebrity crushes, right along side Simon Cowell and Hugh Grant.)

In a movie/series that is supposed to empower women, isn't it odd that the heroine ends up with the guy that married someone else, cheated on her with someone, and over all treated her like crap, except on the rare occasion when he had time to be better? Is that really the type of thing that young women or women in their 30's should be aspiring to?

Is It So Wrong.....

...that i just clipped on my Ipod so that I wouldn't hear my 2.5 year old who is screaming in her room that she doesn't want to take a nap?

I way prefer music to screaming tantrums.

Disconnected, not Mad

I feel bad that I DON'T feel bad. Is that bad? My mother is leaving soon for a trip. She has been going on trips in her RV with her husband since I was in Jr. High. Last year was my 10 year high school reunion if that helps tell you how long she's been traveling. She comes back for a few months at a time, but generally spends most of the year on the road. She comes back for special occasions graduation, my wedding, the birth of my kids. She'll stay for a while and then they are off again. When she is "here" she tries to just jump in like we have the perfect family. We don't and that's annoying that she can't just deal.

Over the years, I have simply become accustomed to it, and it's not a big deal. I don't cry when she leaves. I don't feel that sorry for her if it's more her husbands' idea to be gone, because marriage is a compromise, and if she wanted to stay that bad, she would figure it out. I don't feel sad when she calls me and is sad that she misses us or the kids. I simply disconnect myself from the whole things because for about 13 years, this has been how it is. She's flighty, I get it. her marriage isn't great, I get it.

It's annoying, but it doesn't really make me sad or mad. And that in itself makes me mad. But not enough to try and change it. Not enough to talk to her about. There really isn't anything to talk about. She's very dramatic and I couldn't even stand to have a conversation with her that would result in her crying. It's too dramatic for me. That makes me feel bad too.

Licking

Does your kid lick you? Because lately, my 2.5 year old daughter has been licking me and wiping her tear/snot/drool on me with enthusiastic fervor. Seriously, it's gross. Why does she do this?

Public Service

is it just me, or does Indy still have it after all these years?

Revelations

Update: my play date went great and i can't wait to do it again. she was super fun, totally relaxed and an inspiration considering what she has on her hands!

my 29th year has been good so far. had some fun times with my hubs and the kiddos and feel like this is going to be a great year.

i am still feeling a little sad about my lack of friends though. i have a few fabulous ones that i wish so badly lived closer! maybe it's als a bit of not being able to relate to too many people in my life. my husband and I get a long fabulously and we pretty much have the same views on the important things (parenting, work, politics, food (LOL!)). i am very thankful this, because I read things on True Mom Confessions that are so disheartening. I read things like "my husband is such an ass. i hate him. he is worthless and irritates me." my response to that is "then why are you married to him, idiot. if he is such an ass, you are too for choosing to marry him, and if things changed and you did nothing about it. it actually infuriates me when people say things like this. but anyway, moving on...

i can't relate to my siblings, my mother, my MIL my SIL or my mother's husband. i wish i could because i think that those are supposed to be anchoring relationships in one's life, no? i have tried to relate to my MIL but she is very angry and bitter, and we have nothing in common. same with his sister. i feel bad about this, because i could do more to be more accepting and forgiving, but i don't really. my husband feels the same, except they are close because they are mother and son. same with my mom and her husband. i don't get them and i don't really try to. i don't try to be tolerant or accepting. i just plain don't agree with them and the choices that they make and i can't come to terms with it. i find myself being annoyed with them even though they are totally helpful with my kids sometimes. i think that my mom is literally starting to lose it from being wardened by someone for the last 15 years and it's starting to show BIG TIME. i kind of feel bad about this, but then again, no one put a gun to her head to marry him.

I do have a good relationship with my dad and step mom because they are normal!! not only can i totally relate to them, they are sane.

i think more so than the fact that i don't have relationships with such people who should be pivotal in my life, it's that i am so lame, i can't be more tolerant of their quirks. you know that by quirks i mean things that irritate me so i want to scream, right?

how do you get past these type of things? or am i the only one in which "kill em with kindness" is not working?

29 and feeling fine

in a few hours i will turn 29. and i will begin my best year ever! woot!

To all the Mom's

Happy Mother's Day to all you mom's out there!

May today be filled with sleeping in, pedicures, massages, champagne brunch, naps, shopping, martini's, shoes, or whatever makes you happy! YOU DESERVE IT!

Wish Me Luck...

...because I have a Mommy play date tomorrow. I am meeting the wife of a good friend of mine at a local farmers market for some strolling and coffee and shopping. She has triplets! But she is totally in control and with it.

I've hung out with her before and I really like her. She's a bit younger than me, but we still have a lot in common. I am hoping that this can be the beginning of a beautiful new friendship.

Things are LAME

Thing #1 is that Microsoft would invent a product that my husband would fall in love with, that has such a mechanical bug they added red lights to indicate the mechanical failure? Xbox 360 is on it's way to the repair center along with millions of other consoles. In reality, the hubs doesn't play very often unless the girls and I are out because it's not appropriate for an influential 2 year old to watch her dad kill zombies or whatever they are. But It still irks me that they knowingly sell things where 30% of them fail and must be repaired.

Thing #2 is that my oldest has had about 4 time outs before lunch.

Things #3 is that there is 4 large brown spots in my yard.

Thing #4 is that my poor husband woke up in the middle of the night feeling like he was getting sick. Booo. Now I will insist that he takes Airborne and drinks a TON of water.

Thing #5 is that Jason Castro lasted as long as he did.

Thing #6 is the fact that I am still bothered by the incompetent service I was provided with at a local Subway. The sammy maker was shouting to her friend in the back about going to a beach party. Then she informed me that they were out of tomatoes. Usually this particular Subway is operated by the owners. But that night it was operated by a couple of teens who thought they were too good to work at the place. LAME. But what's lamer is that I am still annoyed. I hate poor service.


Thing #7 is that I feel a deep sense of loss when I have to prune my roses. Seriously. I know that is so ridiculous, but for reals!!

Thing #8 is that while I will see the Sex in the City movie, I find myself not being able to relate to the series anymore. While watching the episode where Big and Carrie are having an affair and Natasha comes home and then finds Carrie, and then knocks her tooth out had me mad! I think I will blog more about this later....

My Declaration

In one week from today, I turn 29. A year from that I will be 30. That will mean that I have spent 15 years feeling overweight and unhappy about it. Therefore, I have decided to declare my 29th year as the that I finallyget skinny get down to the weight that I am comfortable with.

I plan on doing so by eating much healthier and limiting my intake of my favorite things such as chocolate and cheese and basically most carbs.

I also plan on walking a min of 3 days a week with the girls.

I also hope to do yoga on the mornings that we don't walk.

I also plan on venting alot during this time because I love too cook and I love to eat and I love bad food. And wine.

I hope that this plan will give me more energy and drive to be active, as well as make me more comfortable in clothes, and dare I say it? A bathing suit.